RES

yes I have been back for quite a long time,
though the life just starts to be normal for me now....
I know, even I have got a job offer,
and used to an OL life... for three months.

I think that is why I now fit in to so-called home.
I denied.
I struggled.
I accept.

Recently I read a series of articles about reverse culture shock. I did not know how to deal with my depression at first. The only thing I did was keeping busy, busy joining English speaking group, busy preparing for the IELTS, busy approaching new fields and new people, busy fill up my mind.

I realised there were few who are interested in my experience, so I kept my life-changing trip to myself. John told me so before he got back last year, I mean he departed and was back again~ It could be weird to be back.\ Things and folks are way too normal, too boring. In these articles, even a supermarket is just exotic one.

I was not understanding why people in my place could just focus on these tiny pieces? Are they blind and deaf? Are they dump in the heart? However I took my way to memorise my terrific books. Which are kind of silly, but they worked. I seeked similar food, I hid from the crowd, I plunged myself into English Until now, I am still so comfortable shopping some cooking material in a quiet mall. Then all these bit are mentioned in the RES articles. I think I did right.

These article are touching, really. I smiled or shed my tears as I just comprehend all the emotion, massive bitness. But I think I will be understanding next time. I will not be that 'shocked' next time. It takes a while, but it's worth it. Return is a part of the itinerary.