Well it has been a solid 3-month for me
to be back home
to be fitting in a "neat box', a 'bustling wheel'
to downturn the cultural shock,
to recognise my denying useless

It has been a solid season for me
to get accumtomed to the polluted air,
to accept the gossiping media,

Am appreciatively climbing.

Up to

Not born with a gold spoon, I hammer my steel into an axe; chopping firewoods to keep the tiny sparkle glowing

I miss you
I miss those days with you
Sadly I can only be with you online.
Its a pity a wrong chemical.

I had 2 interviews today.
I sent a résumé today.
I was in formal dress you haven't seen before today.
I showed my curteous smile at the interview today.
I introduced myself in English today.

I got a mail from Inland Revenue.about tax return today.
I photographed Taipei 101 today.
I saw double rainbow today.
I realized the couples silly today.
I felt like a zombie without you.
I paid too much attention and concentration on you.

I was happy to fit into a new life.
I am unhappy so that I conflict.
the suffer of conflict needs fresh to divert.
divert the helpless/hopeless of losing myself.

it si now the Autumn Equinox, which is I'll have sunlight shorter and shorter
less and less happy
Tu me manques

37.6, which is....

怎麼就讓我在這麼奇妙的距離喜歡上了

Not Afraid

House sitting in Naseby, I experienced the life after my parents' age.
Wwoofing in Wellington Masterton, I see the model a bit later my age.

To make it good,
to make it sweet.

I must do those before I know to be afraid of.
Not want to be afraid, but feel like less and less courage.
less and less boiling bubbles in my vessel.
At least I'm strong and brave so far.
At least I'm pushing myself to try hard.

Such little patience I have, I'm glad to achieve step by step.
I'll never forget how I started a fire and protected it and kept it glowing this winter.
Let me own the tiny sparkle for good.

Snow Denn Lodge

20minutes later


winter light
我在想 回家之後
應該會有好一陣的文化衝擊
應該會很想念這些只有英文字的調味料
想念這些被習慣的英文名字
超市，商店，路牌，食物

於是，誠實地看著自己的失望，軟弱
即便是負面的情緒
即使遇到壞人，不講理的人，自私鬼，
even things around me getting down at the same time
也將使我站起來，更強壯

cherish the moment of 人在國外
I won't be an embarrasing Chinese!

Everything here just destroyed the respect for guests.
moving guests disorganized,
warning guests badmannered,
laundry doing at 8am with expecting guests should go skiing earily
checking heater switch in early morning

第一支舞，First Dance

學著溝通
學著不要敢怒不敢言
學著謙虛
學著平衡於真善美

這一年
收穫了很多很多
結束了非常投入的實驗室工作
啟程了勇敢新奇的冒險
遇到很多的好人，還有一點點的不開心
遇到很多的喜歡，還有一些些的挫折

有著海闊天空的想法
滿滿的故事在心理茁壯

Practice English Writing

I had a dream three years ago.
It was about fleeing from volcanic eruption!

I was at home. There's an earthquake,
and lots of stones falling down and pilng up to my neighbors .
So I conjectured IT WAS VOLCANIC ERUPTION!

I was going to run.
In the dream, my mum was still working,
my dad was busy fixing something with a screw driver and not aware.
and all inhabitants in our lane were terrified.
My brother returned to be 4 y/o but a good child.
Halo the dog could SPEAK MANDARIN, and gave me opinions.
She said,"this is more important, take it!"
but still she was not able to hold anything without thumb like every other dogs.

Arrowtown of winter

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Paradise of summer and winter

Lake Tekapo in summer and winter